• this is
    home
  • what is
    deepsicks
  • who is
    meg holle
  • explore the
    archive
  • haunt the
    graveyard
  • sometimes i
    make art
  • what else
    is there
Archives for posts with tag: adventures
« Older Entries

observantory

November 23, 12 //
0
Narratives, Photography
adventures

This time we go west, wave at Fredericksburg as we pass, into the deep expanse of desert steppe and mesas. We have a date with the universe seven hours away to see light from galaxies that took two million years to get here.

What if we’re late?

We speed across Texas that for all it pulls faces I must admit is beautiful—out here, in nowhere, with scattered alien industry, ancient oil pumps slurping the earth breathing fire, wind turbines as far as the eye can see.

It was dark by the time we hit the mountains, winding through the night with lightning flashing over ridges, just around the bend, to the McDonald Observatory Star Party. We are right on time for the clouds to disappear and peep in giant telescopes to wonder at Albireo, numbered nebulae and Andromeda rushing toward us.

We feel big and small and normal sized in quick succession and set up camp in the dark to wake to gorgeousness,

all kinds of garbage melting out of us.

We want a picture of us with the observatory in the distance, the massive domes seen from Davis Mountains State Park.

But operating under duress—batteries about to die, the sunglare intense—we can’t catch all of us.

There.

Where?

There.

The light is only eight minutes old this time but so bright it blinds us from getting it right and out of nowhere Arthur’s arm turns into the mountain.

A year later and my favorite trick is still how he becomes the horizon.

0
 comments
 

House on the Rock

August 26, 12 //
1
Narratives, Photography
adventures, art, swoons, whoa

New York to Black Moshannon to Chicago to Motel 6, at last we reach House on the Rock. Prior pilgrims and the internet cannot prepare you, nor any supply of establishing shots. Why did wealthy, artist–eccentric Alex Jordan collect these things, build these bent fantasies, automaton musical instruments and fake antiques? Elaborate doll houses and carved whale teeth? Winged mannequins and eye-popping carousels passed off as whimsy but it’s spooky, it’s a wet bed, nightmare fuel in machine-shed warehouses nestled in the dells of Wisconsin.

“This was his dream,” a woman chides her husband who looks baffled and disgusted, collapsed on a couch in a claustrophobic room. “This is what he wanted to do.”

A shaky truth inside rebuke: Desire this wild, this intense and detailed excises the requirement to answer for it.

How could you question such a thing?

Arthur had experienced House on the Rock before. He kept mum on the comings up and held my hand through most of it.

Some of the displays were eye-candy quiet, like this wall I found in the toilet.

But we also witnessed a crime scene,

the vials and pills that couldn’t kill pain,

a steam-engine hearse to take the corpse the distance,

a carriage for the fancy dead just down the way.

Then all heaven and hell broke loose, menageries, too, as we plugged in tokens to watch the rooms move, the chairs playing their violins hooked to wires and tubes,

carousels spinning much too fast thousands of lights and vacant looks.

This was his dream.

Embodied desire.

To dream is to deserve everything.

But who is this procession for, this mad, surreal parade?

Us. Of course.

Our wonder and horror complete the vision.

Giving our gaze to give it meaning.

Even if we don’t believe it’s happening.

It’s happening.

Holding hands for tenderness and terror.

1
 comments
 

New York for a day

August 26, 12 //
2
Photography, Shouts
adventures, dancing

Found Anna in her cherished windowed corner kitchen, glowing in the blank bright white of day, parleying with succulents, mending her mane.

We et up Chinatown and stomped around SoHo,

went to Coney Island to see what Grandma had to say.

Oh, the possibilities! The claptrap chasms!

Danced the darkness in and away.

2
 comments
 

Costa Rica! Part 1: San José

May 28, 12 //
2
Narratives, Photography
adventures, dancing, journeys

This is Part 1 of 2 describing my trip to Costa Rica, April 17–28, 2012. This post covers the first leg, when I was working in the capital San José, with some exploring on my own but mostly touring with university folks. Part 2 focuses on my solo trip to Limón Province on the Caribbean Coast.

There aren’t many librarian positions for which you routinely travel. I wager none send you to Costa Rica… until now. ;P

We usually “set up campus” in US cities for a few days to teach research skills to doctoral students. By now, a trip to Atlanta or Miami’s old hat. The international destinations occur less often, though, and while we take turns, I had little seniority amongst fellow librarians, bummed when colleagues took off for Madrid or Hawaii (which we consider sufficiently exotic to designate as “international”).

No use getting too jealous, though, or even too excited, as destinations may be canceled with little notice. I didn’t even know where I stood in line when suddenly Costa Rica fell into my lap.

Do I want to go?

Hell yes.

While I’ve been running all over the United States lately, it’s been a long time since I’ve stepped a bit further, out of my culture and comfort. I’d never been to Central America, or even Mexico. I signed up for a community education Spanish class and started drilling my siblings; a couple years ago, my brothers Ben and Sam and their wives Kylee and Amy honeymooned in Puerto Viejo, on the Caribbean side.

In San José and beyond, many spoke English; many did not. I consider my Spanish proficiency quite low but was consistently surprised by what I did know, vocabulary culled from workbooks, phone apps and Cormac McCarthy nightmare-scapes in new, useful contexts, undeniably rudimentary but enough to get by.

Additionally, importantly, most of the “work portion” of the trip was structured, in English, safe, and dull. I didn’t mind. I was working, learning and teaching new sessions, slowly easing into the idea that after a few days, I’d be off on my own, alone, in a foreign country with a toddler’s grasp of the language and a pack that, let’s face it, was way too shiny and new.

Work was conducted at a suburban Ramada, positioned between the airport and downtown. The interior was lush and resort-like,

     

…while a higher vantage revealed a gated community feel, plunk in the middle of industry. Meh. It worked.

As always with me, anything unfamiliar becomes instantly fascinating. Palm trees! Rusted metal rooftops superclosetogether!

The hotel’s signature decor was silly reimaginings of famous artwork. A+
I was also quickly exposed to the Cult of Imperial.

         

The mall across the street had a food court with KFC and Mickey D, clothes that wouldn’t fit and books I couldn’t read (but, of course, worth checking out anyway. I bought a bottle of water todos en Español and crowed for hours). Coworkers and I trekked about a bit for supper and such, but otherwise, the Ramada was Life for much of five days.

One exception was a bus tour with all students, faculty and staff. We careened through rush hour downtown while our guide tried to tell us about the soul of his country.

Though very much contained, the tour was far from controlled, from what we saw to what we thought and felt about it.

Someone said the razor-wire was decorative, a symbol of prestige, or faking it. If you wrap your home in barbs, you must be guarding treasure, riches a thief would need to shred flesh to see, to believe that you made it, you’re a success.

Taken from a moving bus, this shot is far from stellar, but I can’t help but marvel at the carrion.

Encouraged to ask questions by our guide, I requested he tell us a Costa Rican myth or superstition. He was older, late sixties, miffed. Why would I want to know about that? Mostly because he said he’d studied, among other things, folklore at university, but I was genuinely interested.

What does your soul look like?

What haunts people here?

“If you stay out late, drinking with your frens, you might hear a clank sound of metal. It is a dog with legs out of metal. He will get you. If you stay out late, drinking with your frens, and maybe you see a woman but who is not your wife, there will be a priest, but he won’t have a head. He will get you.”

At last we arrived at the top of a mountain, the city sparkling below.

After an amazing dinner, we saw a traditional dancing show. In my Spanish class, we had to do a group presentation on a country of our choice. Naturally, I strong-armed my mates into Costa Rica. My culture segment was on dance, none other than the one I was about to see live: Punto Guanacasteco, a flirtatious courtship couples dance. I knew all about it, could even talk about it in Spanish.

Las mujeres toman sus faldas con sus manos y bailan! Los hombres les gustan las mujeres, pero las mujeres son timidas!

I was thrilled—and it was hokey to be thrilled, but it was so fun and so dorky and cool, the teen- and college-aged dancers with a tinge of chagrin this ain’t really what we’re like, ya know? but sucking it up and owning it all anyway.

Coworkers and I spent a good portion of the evening speculating on the life and times of the suave but rakish, somewhat aggressive emcee:

Members of the audience were eventually pulled onto the floor, first by the traditional dancers and later by giant paper-mache head cultural figures (which jarringly included a blackface minstrel character. Eep). I danced with, I think, an Aztec, to resounding cheers and the bafflement of my students the next morning (“Wait… you’re the librarian?“).

There is allegedly photographic evidence of this, but I do not have it. I was later personally complimented by the owner of the restaurant / mountain, whom I’m given to understand is a ridiculously rich man. “You dance very nice!” Gracias, amigo! El mundo está de acuerdo!

The festivities later spilled outside, complete with fireworks that threatened to burn down the mountain while the band kept jamming and the costumed kids twirled and jumped and photobombed every shot possible.

It was one of the moments where my piecemeal, garbage-mess Spanish amazed me. La bruja! El soldado! El campesino! La muerte! El diablito!

I KNOW ALL THESE GUYS!

:D
Go to Part 2: Limón, where I travel to the Caribbean Coast!

2
 comments
 

Costa Rica! Part 2: Limón

May 28, 12 //
1
Narratives, Photography
adventures, biking, dancing, journeys, swoons

This is Part 2 of a double post describing my trip to Costa Rica, April 17–28, 2012. Part 1 centers on San José, where I was working for a few days. This post focuses on the off-on-my-own, terrifying-crazy-awesome-fun time when I stayed in hostels on the Caribbean Sea.

I tried to get someone to come with me. But time and money, they don’t come easy. I didn’t think for a second just to skip it, yellerbelly not set forth on my own. This was Opportunity, handed right to me. It would be a waste to work a few days then go home.

But I would not have done this independently of already being in the country. I am not a particularly seasoned traveler. I “lived abroad” but uhhhh it was Canada. The last time I’d truly been far from familiarity was when I went to Germany and China as a teen—with herds of other tourists and adults doing the thinking.

All of this to say, somewhere along the way my wanderlust got rusty. In theory, ADVENTURE! In practice I don’t put my passport where my mouth is.

Throughout my time in San José, I was nervous—a good scared, but scared, grinning and crapping my pants knowing that soon I would be on my own. The work buffer was great to help me acculturate, learn the currency and collect bearings, but when I headed for the bus station across the city (for which I had no verifiable official name or actual address, to catch a bus I couldn’t book in advance, to be dropped off at another non-address oh lord) what was I thinking.

That everything would be fine.

It was.

For months I’d studied travel books and the advice of my siblings, trying to decide where to go. I ended up mostly following in their footsteps, which at first I wanted to avoid, like an ornery kid sister who wants her own story. Pshhh. They choose well, and I was wise to follow after: to Limón Province on the Caribbean Sea. They stayed in Puerto Viejo—I opted for Punta Uva a few kilometers away for three nights, which was more secluded with nicer beach, then in Puerto Viejo another two, closer to the action (restaurants, shops, reggae nonstop).

The next several shots I took from the bus, a trip of about 5 hours.

It was a Sunday and hot, the rivers filled with families.

We had a short break in Puerto Limón, next to a fantastic graveyard. Photos = necessary. A guy on the street laughed at me. I know the Spanish word for cemetery—I tried to read a bit of El Libro del Cementerio—but I didn’t know how to say Death Reference Librarian, or dark tourism, or taphophilia, so I smiled and shrugged, which made him laugh more.

Arrived at last!

After checking into my hostel, I raced to the beach 5 minutes away to see the sea before the sun set. Being so close to the equator, here night falls at about 6pm.

Walaba Hostel oozed charm.

Terrific communal space…

Nooks to relax…

More metal roofs tickling mah fancy…

My bunk room was relatively open to the unholy grumbles of the howler monkeys raging against the nightly storms. They sounded like dinosaurs or rabid dogs, and I wanted to see one, badly. Other people claimed to see them while lying in bed, looking out the window, or lounging in a hammock, or heck just walking down the street.

But I didn’t. See. A single monkey in the wild. Squirrels masquerading as monkeys? Yes. Monkey-shaped shadows and leaves? Plenty. Monkey monkeys? No. Muy disappointing.

At $6 a day, these cruisers were the bomb.

Despite being sunny every day in San José, when I got to the coast, it poured daily.

But if I let wet stop me, I wouldn’t have done anything. I grabbed a bike and rode to Manzanillo, a quiet town a few kilometers away.

I know this one!

BUZZARDS.

For a while I biked into what I think was a park, but honestly I don’t know am I supposed to be here?

Probably.

Not.

Definitely yes.

While great to meet people and tour about with others, exploring on my own was amazing. The sound of the sea, not a soul in sight… so peaceful, picture perfect.

Dogs were everywhere. Stray dogs, community dogs, jerk dogs like this one who ran me off the beach,

and chill-ass cool dogs. You’d see a dog in the afternoon inspecting a stream,

and the same dog in a club later that night, passed out in a corner.

This dog settled next to me as I read on the beach then, a few hours later, weaved among the revelers on the dance floor.

And birds. The birds! I heard way more than I saw, and it was fascinating to hear a sound and not know if it was an insect or a bird or some demented mammal.

A shout-out here to Amy who suggested I get Tevas. I was mucking through rain, fording rivers, falling in and out of the ocean and giant mud puddles, while also hiking and biking and dancing and in a couple questionable shower stalls. They were essential.

DRIFTWOOD DRAGON!

Want to play?

Yay!

Playa perritos. Muy tipico.

When planning my trip, I planned on there being another young woman somewhere in the world also planning a trip to Costa Rica. She might be Canadian, or German. I planned for us to meet, and we would have adventures.

She was German. Her name was Astrid. We ziplined through the canopy in the sheeting rain.

     

Despite my failure to see real monkeys in real trees, I did see several in quasi-captivity at a rescue and release center. I went into this enclosure and they climbed all over me—snuggling in my arms, leaping on my head and wrestling with other monkeys on my back.

Adorable sloth time!

After three nights, I moved to a hostel in Puerto Viejo. The town is an eclectic mix of Ticos (native Costa Ricans), Afro-Caribbeans, expatriates from all over and short- and long-term backpackers.

It’s touristy, for sure, with its hostel and outlying rustic resort infrastructure and guided tour outfits, but it didn’t seem fake and certainly not moneyed. I hesitate to say “unspoiled” or “authentic,” but it definitely had character and vibrancy, with touches of seediness and sleaziness while nonetheless never seeming dangerous.

Along with my stay in Punta Uva, the area was perfect for my comfort zone—pushed out enough I felt challenged and occasionally hopelessly, awkwardly American, but not crushingly alienated or unwelcome.

My dorm at Sunrise Hostel, however, left much to be desired. Some toilets didn’t have seats; others didn’t have lights. They tried to charge me more than double and my Spanish failed me, but I showed them math and prevailed.

Most restaurants dispense with walls.

I had amazing vegetarian food at Veronica’s Place, below. Overall, everywhere, the food was terrific—beans and rice never tasted so flavorful, and the fried plantains and fresh pineapple were to die for.

Kosher surfer chicken, mon!

My last day on the coast, I biked to Cahuita with Astrid, a good 17 kms (10.5 miles) one way.

I went flying through the rainforest dangling from a wire. I crashed in the waves of the Caribbean Sea. Dogs pawed, monkeys crawled all over me. En route back to San José, I went whitewater rafting, careening in the rapids of the gorgeous Pacuare River.

But what I loved best was just getting on a bike, leisurely pedaling through the gorgeousness of everything.

The bike rental guy warned us of clever thieves and recommended we lock our bikes outside the police station. Sounds reasonable. Upon finding the station in Cahuita with its telltale blue and white paint, we talked up a couple of cops who came to see what the foxy foreigners want. Oh sure, they’d watch our bikes. We could leave them right there.

But they wouldn’t let us lock them to anything. We questioned their logic. They assuaged with nonsense winks and smiles. We protested. They got mad.

We locked the bikes together and walked off shell-shocked, deciding half a minute later this was beyond strange and felt absurdly wrong. We went back to save our bikes amidst admonishments for not trusting them. We were literally yelled at by cops, but jeez, what were we supposed to do? Just let them get lifted? Find ourselves embroiled in some ridiculous scheme where our bikes are “stolen” but the macho trolls “catch the thieves” then expect to get paid or laid? It felt like a sham, a scam, a terribly naive and stupid idea.

So we left them with some Rasta guy instead.

We went to Cahuita for the pleasant ride but mostly for its national park.

Look! Two sloths!

Saw a hundred of these fellas.

A hundred of these translucent crabs, too, plus hermit crabs and cutter ants and a nonchalant raccoon.

I <3 epiphytes! (Plants that grow on other plants.)

The trip to Cahuita was my one day of sun, and I got burned, both ready for home and sad it came so soon. Early the next morning, I leave for the whitewater rafting tour, and in the evening they drop me off in San José. It was a randomly chosen hostel—I just needed a place to sleep before catching a plane the next morning. Sitting in the bar, devouring mac n cheese with a tall Costa Rican craft brew, I figure bed a foregone conclusion.

Then are you coming with us? comes at me five times in three minutes. Next thing I know, I pile in a car with 50 Cent blaring, a stoned Tico with a Finnish girl on his lap shouting in my ear, “How long you been in San José?” to have finally arrived in the company of gangsters, total strangers, hippies and Midwesterners with good hearts.

“About two hours.”

“Cool.”

We clown-car emerge in dance central in a university part of town dense and wild with glitz and swagger, smooth moves, drink, bright lights, Latin grooves, shy grins, nasty beats and anthems. Pulled into the fray, I find and flirt with the rhythm. My companions are mostly American, Australian and Brazilian, impressed and shocked and laughing asses off from my unexpected, unprecedented dance prowess.

I barely know their names but already we are us, comrades, a crew, and when one of us gets stolen by a hottie or a rogue to grind or pantomime being sultry or aloof we squeal and howl and fight back, plucking a Tico or a Tica from the mix while their friends whoop and die of scandal.

I wonder if the Punto Guantecasteco kids are here this is kind of what we’re like, you know? fun and energetic and mostly level-headed, friendly to dogs when they wander in the discos but fearing the ones made of metal.

I scan the swarm for el diablito.










(Thanks for reading!)

1
 comments
 

all backed up

May 26, 12 //
0
Narratives
adventures, journeys, now + zen

I returned from Costa Rica to a sick machine. Can’t fool me, I knew it was a goner, and it did too. I used it to research its own replacement honey, what were your specs again? I know I can do better. Haunting Micro Center. Performing Last Bytes.

I had somewhat recent backups on an external drive, but I was waiting for the weekend for a final, full sweep when the video bucked and roared.

P A N I C ! W O E ! O F O R T U N A !

According to my DriveMate, my files are fine—all my words n pixels safe, in the right place. It’s hardly convenient, though. I have adventures to relay! Big water lung swells! Beach dogs and bravery! Over 450 photos of pura vida wonder.

After I returned, I couldn’t sleep and wake and know what was going on. I’d been living in hostels, sleeping amongst strangers, swirls of different languages and rooster crows every hour of early morn. Home at last alone in my own bed, it felt unusual, primal deep dread in the middle of the night, afraid of the familiar made strange. Unheimlich. Too few breathing bodies. Too many heartbeats in my chest.

I did not reflect on independence, of living alone as an adult woman, of the pride and power and luck of being financially fit enough not to need roommates. I night-terror wanted my mommy. Every shadow had teeth. Several nights in a row, I didn’t know where I was.

The sharp of it would pass momentarily, but that chemical fear stuck in the blood, a red flag nag, a shade you can’t shake like you get when you know you forgot something.

Meanwhile, in waking, for days I paw sleek laptops, watch reviews and absorb the advice of internet strangers and friends. Perhaps stubbornly, I determine the technology I want doesn’t yet exist. While I await my knight in shining chassis, at my dad’s last weekend I dusted off good ol’ Teabombelly, my library school ‘bot that had crapped out at the time but was relatively revived under the tutelage of Ubuntu. I still use Windows from the dual boot, but even that’s been behaving.

It has Photoshop, which means… I have a lot of work to do. Hundreds of moments to review, to weed and improve and remember. Worship the sand and sun, tame the torrents of rain. Temper the jungle and render the sea.

And that’s not the half of it, I’ve posts neck-deep, narratives and shouts and all the crazy things I see, I’m all backed up with that something I’m forgetting but then it crawls before me:

When Teabombelly sleeps, she reminds me to breathe.

0
 comments
 
« Older Entries
  • brave empire

    • Death Reference Desk
    • Meg Holle, Librarian
    • The Author Is Dead
    • You Are Not Dead
  • buy product

  • browse tags

    adventures america angst arkytechture art biking books dancing deepsicks fake family fargo found text garbage halloween hilarity holledays home hotelandia industrial bones internets journeys joy libraries minneapolis music now + zen oh noes politics rants sad face satan school shows skating st. paul street art swoons the vault U of M vancouver victoria whoa writing you are not dead zombies
Wu Wei by Jeff Ngan, modified by Meg Holle.
Copyright 2002 - 2013 by Meg Holle.
to the top